Notices by Gwen the Trans Balrog (youshallnotpass@chaosfem.tw), page 2

@roadriverrail @Ghostynn @Terra @Dani @AlwaysAutumn
And regardless of whether it's big and dramatic or not, I'm sure I have trauma responses to it.

So I guess I don't agree. I think trauma can be a useful framing. I haven't really unpacked mine yet, but I know it's there, all mixed up with other stuff.

As far as medicalizing it, dysphoria sounds much more like a mental illness then trauma to me. I respect those who feel differently though. Whatever works for them is what they should use.

Ah, that trans girl activity where I get bored and wonder whether simply replacing my penis with a vagina would be enough to make the dyspho go away. How little could I get away with? Could I boymode it forever if I just had the right parts downstairs?

I'm so used to the dysmorphia and the dysphoria though. It barely hurts anymore. And I'm old and married so it's not like anyone is going to get a gander at my junk.

@Terra
And yet, stupidly, I don't experience the dysphoria anywhere near as hard as I think I should to be valid.

I have experienced euphoria. I know there's more to life than this. It's just a lot.

Thank you for being so supportive of your trans siblings. It means a lot to me, for one.

@Dani @Terra @AlwaysAutumn
You and me both, sister. I figure that's because if we just flipped a switch and suddenly experienced it all at once, it would fry our brains.