I like being where I'm welcome but not catered to, not the default. I'm Black in America. I'm fucking used to that sensation of being politely tolerated
Masto feels that way. Dear God it feels that way
I wanna put my feet on your couch. Metaphorically
I subsume the desire to hurt and abrade and upset you and choose life instead each day but that shit is a muhfucking choice.
Mine is more mischief than malevolence. Even when I'm at my worst i do care about you
But sometimes i want you to hurt