Other days, Singapore Chinese exceptionalism just pisses me off so much I want absolutely nothing to do with it. It pissed me off when I was there, and it annoys me even more from a distance once I’m detached from it.
In that society, there was absolutely no room for a queer autistic person. Never was, never will be. (People will swear up and down that it’s changing but it’s still deeply steeped in ableism) No amount of my privilege could have shielded me from it.
Is this place much better? I won’t go as far as to claim it. But I’m thankful to have space to just.. exist. That feels fraught right now, but for what it’s worth I also feel I have the capacity and ability to define the life I want, here.