@icedquinn@blob.cat I’m not in a good place myself. I apologize I don’t have the energy or will right now to help or talk more. I can’t help the way you probably need as I am going through similar things, but in different ways. Explore the advice I mentioned in the last comment and find better online communities for start, & the advice of past things I’ve said where you should find irl things to do to enrich your life experiences and get away from your family more. Work on finding government programs to help you, work on moving out, use resources from therapy places (try places run by the state, not private practitioners), volunteer & go to church if just for the quiet and exercise.