tightening the laces until circulation cut
cold extremities, body numb
slow humming of an engines put
arrows into your ears bleeding
babbling onto you until you notice im dumb

explain it to me, pretty and free
show me the dropping of your stomach
and leave for me little pieces of you to see
hold them holy to me, until despise
I hate you, thoughts of lingering touch, ache

to your core your nerves lay bare
each touch makes you shrink away
share with me each of your cares
strung out eyes, unstable breath
mistake

mistook me for humanity
fumbled my fears, overlooked insanity
wiped my tears, convinced your self
no scrutiny

what does it mean to me
exist only outside myself
each of these parts of me
sorted out, tossed around
put up here out of reach