@graf Then you must pray to ask the universe that you survive this malady so that you will sire many sons and daughters and create a lasting dynasty that will endure and lead Canadians to the promised land. There are spiritual guides and entities that surround you at all times; sincerely ask for their help so that you can fulfill your destiny and pledge your adherence to Logos and truth and see if that helps. Surrender to your destiny and the flow of life will sustain you through this.