i get myself really worked up about all of this stuff and by the time i was in the surgery room i was kind of having a panic attack, but they didnt even ask me if i was ready for the anesthetic i kind of just blacked out and honestly that was the best thing they could have done for me. when i woke up the first thing i thought was "thank god i never have to worry about that again" and the fear of regretting it or whatever went away almost instantly. i hope this is a good life lesson for me honestly