My heart is anarchist - in the properly-understood sense exemplifed for me by the likes of David Graeber - and always has been. My head is some sort of demsoc, mainly because it still can't figure out how to get There from Here without bloodshed.
But every inch closer we get to fascism, I become more radicalized, and I don't like it. I don't want it to have to be this way. It hurts my soul.
But people gotta eat, and needs must.