In principle I do reject freudianism, but my mother fucks a guy who hit me, is closer to her fathers age than to hers and has the same beard and habitus as her father while my father fucks a girl who is my age, has my hair style, and also is a single mother of an autistic child. Putting all this information together into one sentence does make it sound like their subconsciousness might want to tell me something, doesn't it? But what?