This is just psychology! You are just cells! This is just the sharp shadow on the cave wall echo of social connection you are choosing and you've named it technical! These are just the firings in your brain that should they go wrong will remove entirely your ability to recall the words to make a miserable stranger on a forum say you are technical! This is just the list of software vendors that you can keep memorizing every year to convince yourself that they love you! This is just your life!