Like I said it lasted for barely two weeks
I know it's an unpopular discipline now... But I do find a lot of use out of the Catholic notion of unforgivable sins
It's a good physical and mental exercise to stay away from them
Despair being one of these.. I had to give it a least a little shot
But yeah the fact that it happened also fast and so smoothly was one of the first indications it was futile hope