Planning a trip for like, winter of this year/early next year.

honestly thinking i'll just fast track it lol. sell all my shit, get a one way ticket and see where life takes me from there.

i was planning this trip originally under happier circumstances, to see the woman i loved!
now i plan it to bring a headstone some flowers, and honestly it kills me.
all of my thoughts are hard to explain i guess. i just miss her a lot and i want to get out of this shit hole i live in.