Look, I dunno what to do with some of ya, I really don't.
On one hand I'm sympathetic to your realization that "there will be violence and fascists might try to kill me."
Otoh, most of my friends and associates been kinda living that reality for over 8 years now, and all of us had to look that in the face and mourn.
So I empathize with you, I really do, cause I've been where you are right now. When you're done freaking out tho, you'll be better off because all that was true before today.