To be sure, I'd be a woman regardless of patriarchal culture. I think this part of myself is soul-deep.
However, those 17 years served as a rocket-powered source of trauma which drove me forward into the arms of my real self with elemental force.
And I feel no shame over this. I understand things that I might not have were I a cis girl during those 17 years.
And I judge the world's lust for patriarchy and brutality accordingly.
What I know shapes who I am and the woman I am.