I refer to this bit of writing of mine a lot but this blog is not only a discussion of toxic masculinity, it was at the core of a series of revelations in my 17th year that framed my understanding of how much "boyness" and masculinity were profoundly wrong for me and that I had to embrace the female part of myself to survive living in this world.
It was a break in my psyche that cracked my proverbial egg so wide open that I'd never return to maleness.
https://hauntedtimber.wordpress.com/2023/11/24/in-a-world-where-boyhood-is-weaponhood/