Whilst it it my general policy that I refuse to justify my shitposts:
Pretending to be normal for professional reasons is exhausting and I don't wanna.
Last year I entirely failed to pretend to care about doing B2B assessments of CRM SaaS products, and that vibe is a lot of what's behind my recent efforts to concentrate on things that I find artistically or intellectually rewarding.
This is fundamentally the same position as twenty-three-year-old me's "I should get a grant to hang around and look decorative while writing poetry and taking prodigious quantities of drugs" argument, I think.
(UBI when.)