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okay, managed to finish the sandwich in the late afternoon, then for dinner i had about 150g of cheese, with mayo, lettuce and onions on corn wafers, again. i've eaten all the cheese i had so i'll have to eat something else tomorrow, and i'll need to take a break from mayo specifically for a good while.

i had a bit of an episode while standing in front of the bathroom mirror, as i could both see how thin i was while also obsessing over how fat i was. it was eerie, and not a fun experience. the urge to punch my own stomach was overwhelming at the time, but i managed to take it out on a towel instead, and i only have 45 minutes to go until i reach 24h without punching it! unless something really bad happens, i should be okay.

i just want to fast so bad. i feel like just one day would fix everything, but it can't. as an alternative, i might have a vegetable-only day tomorrow, as that avoids all my trigger foods.