woke up after getting raped and fucked in various scenarios in my dreams

then realized after waking up a gist of how my life ended up the way it did

i'm surprised people complained about my personality not being proactive, but had i been more proactive, i would've murdered a loooot of people

and somehow that was ever wrong

kinda understood why i was a little psychopath when i was younger and all of a sudden, i genuinely think people who've deterred murder should be killed