Just received some awful news from my first sensei, you know, the one I mentioned really often.
His coronaries are completely calcified, he can die at any moment.
I'm devastated. Can't find words.
He gave me his last will for me. I promised I'll do what he asked from me.
I'm having a huge panic attack, my life is a nightmare. Why? Why him? Why so soon?
I'm still grieving from grandpa's death, that would kill me from inside...