And, well. I feel like I'm living in the horrible timeline where two people who would have loved each other like that just never met, or didn't realize the possibilities when they did meet.
I like my life. It's mostly pretty good.
But I've never had the kind of relationship that I truly want, and I suspect that I never will.
I get that fictional characters are fictional, etc. Real people have flaws and real relationships are messy and challenging and all that.