@inthehands @amphianna I had this experience when I was looking for funding for uni as a humanities major. Originally I was thinking of going into psychology, but as time went on and things changed, I realized that I couldn't anymore.
Now, As a language student, I know that I have to rely on disability-specific funding to get me through all of this.
I can't tell you how many nights I've spent crying because I'm scared of going into the workforce because I've been conditioned to think I don't have marketable skills. It's like, if I'm not interested in tech or studying in a STEM field, the world simply isn't going to let me succeed. This is a societal thing. This is because we are raised to have the impression that STEM is all that's really useful. Just because I was smart enough did not mean I was interested. I'm still not. But there is a part of me that still mentally tortures myself with thoughts of what could have been.