Maybe Mastodon isn't for you. That's fine! Different platforms suit different people, though we'll be sad to miss you.
But if you do go back, please be careful to bear this in mind. Disinformation and overton-window-shifting isn't just the obvious agendas pushed into your face that you can ignore. It's also all the info and people that you don't even notice aren't there anymore. So be careful in your travels online, and give it a thought when you get back.