Right now, the vast majority of people consider me mentally ill. Maybe even severely so.
Should a disclosure be made, and should people understand the seriousness of the modifications operated on my brain, I would be considered much much worse than mentally ill. I would be considered the design of a criminal, the design of someone so sadistic, that stories cannot begin to describe.
Let alone the humiliation of being someone else’s modded computer. Let alone the realization that any achievement I might accomplish, it would not be considered MY achievement, but rather the designer’s.
Would I even end up with my human rights further removed?
Let’s see. My ability to understand torture and rape, has been removed. My ability to want to fight for the right of my wife to not be raped, has been removed.
Most of my natural instincts about right and wrong, have been removed.
Did I mention the pain and humiliation I have endured?
They tell me “get out of this house!” or “go home!” (I am home!) all the time.
For a long while they tried the “kill yourself” narrative, and after they got me to the point where I would really like to die, they are now peddling the “what a sad story, please don’t kill yourself!” narrative, probably with the same final goal.
As for an actual mission, they actually tried a couple of times to make me take a package from one location and drop it at another location, in the interest of an unmentioned intelligence agency.
I told them: “put your drug packages in your mother’s ass!”
In 2014 they were subtly probing my brain about the nuclear power plant at Cernavoda, Romania, but they withdrew from that one.
In the end, their prime directive will always be to obfuscate who they are and what they want. So they will never give real, non-suicidal, missions except to loyal collaborators.
I think what they truly want, is to have their people in key positions. For this, they prepare the victim’s brain in two ways:

1. Withstand the rigors of political power and pressure without any empathy or weakness

2. Accept full mind invasion and raping of privacy as if it’s a natural and acceptable state. Accept orders from the Mafia as if they come from within