@roadriverrail IF I go back I'm going to be completely disconnecting from my family. There's just no net benefit to us being connected at this point on either side, and in fact there is harm being caused by having that level of access to me. Sucks, but after 50 years I'm done with putting square pegs into round holes. I've gotten more compassion, understanding, and support from random internet strangers than people who I'm related to.