I'm at the lowest point in my life.

I want to give up. I really want to give up, and just starve in my bed until I die.

My mental health has been deteriorating for years, now. And it's at the lowest it's ever been. And I've no clue what to do. Therapist is trying to help me solve this naturally, but now even my parents are suggesting I go on anti-depressants.

I don't want to do that to myself.

I'm not going to dope myself up, just to survive an unnatural world that should have never existed. But leave it to the latchkey generation to take that kind of abuse, and live with it like the cucks they are.

They'll get to retire, as a reward for their suffering...

I'll never get to retire. I'll never get to rest. I'll never get to pursue my dreams, because the world keeps sucking the time, energy, and life out of me.

And I just don't know what to do...

I want to turn off, again. Just shut off the last shred of my humanity, and go on automatic until this all blows over.

But I know it'll never blow over...

It'll just keep getting worse, until it kills me.

I want to die, but I don't want to waste my life. But pretty much all life is a waste, in this day and age.

So many conflicting thoughts and emotions. No way to process it.

I guess I'll just... Keep going...

I don't have any other choice.