Getting drunk without making excuses to do so is actually what you're currently struggling with. Stop making excuses. Stop justifying your drunkenness. That's what it takes. AA isn't what you need, you need God and conviction. AA might help. You might need detox, idk your habits (I needed detox because otherwise I'd probably have died). At the end of the day it takes you not wanting to drink anymore, everything else is just getting in your way.