I do not mean that I'm inclined to give up. We do not have that luxury, any of us who care. I think I just have to figure out ways to conserve strength for the increasing personal battles I'll have to fight along with my husband on the home front, if his illness progresses more swiftly than his hematologist and oncologist hopes will be the case. He already experiences fatigue that's exacerbated by his having to have blood taken routinely as a treatment.