Am I using this to power myself with spite, to overcome the doubters and naysayers and people who accurately predict things based on my past patterns? Am I weaponizing my pathological opposition to authority and others judging me to push through to the end? Am I going to be laughing at myself in a few days when i discover a disconcerting number of friends accurately predicted where my ADHD brain would sabotage me?
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