I can understand that you hate being aligned with natural cycles, esp. when at times workload makes you hurry and busy. But on the other hand I think it's very nice that you're so close to natural rhythms – even when it involves or makes use of electronic devices. Which reminds me of older debates we had in my youth and early adulthood on what constitutes the more authentical experience of nature, unfiltered and unmitigated, solely by the senses and the body, or by the use of technical means? (We indeed had such discussions in the early 1980s, and a bit later, when even thoughts of abandonment of technolgy for ecological reasons sounded viable and reasonable.) But your attunement also shows in your question. To me it's pretty obvious that the period from autumn to winter feels shorter than the one from winter to spring because of the shorter amount of daylight per day from autumn equinox to winter solistice and longer amount of daylight from winter solictice to spring equinox. And it also sounds like you're not a night owl who indulges in late night activities. So, yes, the days feel shorter because there are fewer hours of daylight, compared to days feeling longer because there are more hourse of daylight. To me, autumn and winter is the best time of the year, perhaps because I was born in November, and the "Raunächte" (the 12 nights between December 25 to January 6) being the most wonderful days of the year in which I live in a dream-like state between the old and the new year. And the time of the year I most dislike is early summer to late summer. Too much light, too many colours, to much heat... So that may be a further reason of your feeling uncomfortable: Perhaps it has something to do with your date of birth. If it is, e.g., around early summer, then it sems obvious, to me at least, that as a newborn you must have been delighted to bath in light and colours and warmth. But that is only a suggestion.