@hellomiakoda LOL at "bluescreens my brain". 🙂
"Why is there something instead of nothing?' is one of the Big Questions. My answer depends on my mental health:
Doing well: call it chaos, file under "Physicists, for the stultification of", enjoy the mystery.
Doing poorly: a malignant universe has created not just me but an Everything Else designed to make me miserable. The thin thread of hope that holds me to existence is the idea that this universe may have a foot, and I may be its Lego.