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@prettygood@socially.drinkingatmy.computer All the things that are killing me are just bad coping mechanisms for that fact.Then it is definitely worth exploring different ways to cope, for me one very recent way that has helped be deal with trauma from the past 4/6 years(I think i shared this with you) was reading philosophy, mainly stoic philosophy, It taught me a complete different way to look at situations.And its going to kill me, and I'm going to let it, because the alternative is to stop loving and caring for people, to stop taking up for people, to stop defending the defenseless, to harden my heart and stop empathizing and start disavowing knowledge of the state of the world.
Especially with this, you are are looking at this from a very negative point of view, You don't have to stop caring for people, you do not have to stop defending the defenseless, you don't need to wall yourself off to others, what is making you think all this, these are illogical and ridiculous thoughts, you should be proud of yourself for wanting all that, that makes you an amazing human being, there is no weakness in that only strength and you are hearing that from a trained fighter.

I will finish with this bit of wisdom that i found when reading about Epictitus a great Stoic philosopher and former slave(Born into slavery)

"You have the power to choose how you respond. Caring for others, standing up for the defenseless, and feeling deeply for the world are things you can control—they're reflections of your strength and character. These qualities don’t make you weak; they show your courage and humanity.

Focus on the things you can control, your responses, your effort, your attitude. As Epictetus said, 'Make the best use of what is in your power, and take the rest as it happens.' Remember, it's about directing your energy to what you can influence and letting go of what you cannot."" ~ Epictetus