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   Revoluciana (revoluciana@chaosfem.tw)'s status on Saturday, 13-Dec-2025 04:51:45 JST Revoluciana

   Today's post is simply a reflection on this wild ride of a last year, the 43 posts/newsletters I've sent out, and my own mindset and plans for the next.

   Old Long Since:
   https://www.revoluciana.net/old-long-since/

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     Revoluciana (revoluciana@chaosfem.tw)'s status on Saturday, 13-Dec-2025 04:51:34 JST Revoluciana

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     "I’m curious what you want this next year, or if you already have plans, I would love to hear them. I’m new to this whole wanting thing. Give me some ideas.

     Share your joy.
     If not me, with someone.
     Even if that someone is yourself.
     You deserve it.
     We deserve it.

     Or else what are we all doing?"

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     Revoluciana (revoluciana@chaosfem.tw)'s status on Saturday, 13-Dec-2025 04:51:35 JST Revoluciana

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     "It’s funny. You write it out like that and it doesn’t seem so selfish or unreasonable.

     I started keeping a list so I don’t put them out of my mind out of habit. I feel better about myself when I want things. Less melancholy. It makes me almost feel like I deserve to have the things I want. Maybe not all of them, but at least some of them."

     👩‍🦯The Blind Fraggle repeated this.
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     Revoluciana (revoluciana@chaosfem.tw)'s status on Saturday, 13-Dec-2025 04:51:36 JST Revoluciana

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     "Looking ahead

     I can’t account for the goddamned zeitgeist, and this isn’t a list of resolutions. I prefer New Year’s revolutions, anyway. New year, new you, new Revoluciana, or something like that. This is simply some stuff I’m looking toward in the next year..."

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     Revoluciana (revoluciana@chaosfem.tw)'s status on Saturday, 13-Dec-2025 04:51:37 JST Revoluciana

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     "I wrote a bunch of posts this year and y’all have been sticking with me through them, even through the messy posts like these. That’s fucking awesome. I love that you’re along for this ride. It truly brings me joy."

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     Revoluciana (revoluciana@chaosfem.tw)'s status on Saturday, 13-Dec-2025 04:51:38 JST Revoluciana

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     "We can imagine Oliver asking, “Please sir, I want some more,” and only ever feel empathy for the poor boy, but when it comes to ourselves? We don’t expect Oliver to sit down and be grateful, so why should we?"

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     Revoluciana (revoluciana@chaosfem.tw)'s status on Saturday, 13-Dec-2025 04:51:39 JST Revoluciana

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     "I slept over at a friend’s the other night, and whenever I do, they have a tradition that their guests “pull a card.” My card told me to imagine myself at the top of the mountain. I don’t remember why the mountain. I do remember that it told me to drop the performative stuff. I told my friend that I don’t think I do a lot of that. They told me, didn’t you just tell me earlier that you apologize all the time, even when things aren’t your fault?

     Oh.

     Oh, I get it.

     Sorry.

     Oops."

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     Revoluciana (revoluciana@chaosfem.tw)'s status on Saturday, 13-Dec-2025 04:51:40 JST Revoluciana

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     "I used to just try to be grateful. I’ve written a little about this, about feeling selfish and that I shouldn’t have wants blah blah blah. I don’t want to be grateful anymore. I mean, I do, but only when it’s genuine."

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     Revoluciana (revoluciana@chaosfem.tw)'s status on Saturday, 13-Dec-2025 04:51:41 JST Revoluciana

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     "I think it’s the cPTSD. It looks a bit like depression, but that’s not what it is. It’s like a weight at times that just drags things down, especially in context of that goddamned zeitgeist.

     Do you feel the weight of the goddamned zeitgeist?

     I think a lot of us do. I know a lot of us do.

     That’s why I’m writing this at the moment. I’ve never been one to do self-affirmations."

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     Revoluciana (revoluciana@chaosfem.tw)'s status on Saturday, 13-Dec-2025 04:51:43 JST Revoluciana

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     "Between my numerous health scares and hospitalizations and surgeries and the goddamned zeitgeist, I’m shocked I was able to squeeze out this much writing.

     I’m proud of myself.

     Those words aren’t easy for my to write."

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     Revoluciana (revoluciana@chaosfem.tw)'s status on Saturday, 13-Dec-2025 04:51:44 JST Revoluciana

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     "I officially (re)launched this writing project on January 10th. This will be my 43rd post/newsletter this year. I had honestly hoped for more, and hopefully I can squeeze out a couple more before a full year has cycled back around, but I can say I’m pretty proud of myself for this. I’ve sent out enough words that once compiled would equal the length of a novel, and I’ve sent it all out for free, because I enjoy doing it. Some of it’s personal, some of it’s weird, some of it’s (I daresay) insightful."