Conversation

Recently I’ve been thinking about taking a step back from my friendship with my mom, maybe just talking to her less.

Sometimes I honestly wonder if I’m just misinterpreting things, but it really seems like she’s uncomfortable with me being fucking queer, especially with me hanging around other queer people at my local gay bar. She’ll question who I’m with and lately it feels like she’s always picking at my life choices. I can’t tell if it’s just me being sensitive, or if she’s actually trying to control what I do.

She’s called me “paranoid” or outright weird just for wanting to live my life and make my own choices, like there’s something wrong with standing out or not fitting in with what she expects. It makes me question myself, but I know I just want to do my own thing, hang out where I feel I belong, and be authentic.

Maybe I’m overanalyzing this, could be the autism, or maybe I really am taking it the wrong way. But it gets exhausting having everything I do, or even just who I am, up for debate all the time.

I know the image isn’t the best choice for this, but honestly, I just felt like putting up a picture. If she ever does come across it, maybe she’ll at least get a sense of how I’m feeling right now.

Am I the only one dealing with this kind of stuff from family, or do others get it too?

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