Rekieta
>DARE lied to you. DARE made it seem like drugs felt horrible, but actually they feel good.
Fair.
>I enjoyed doing drugs. I don't regret doing drugs. I wish I could still do drugs.
Uh.
>If not for the GOVERNMENT, there would not even be any negative consequences to my doing drugs.
>Drugs are awesome and that's why people do drugs.
>Everything I did (swinging, cheating, drugs, drugs on stream, keeping drugs and strange women around my kids) was awesome.
DARE lied about drugs out of an earnest desire to discourage kids from doing drugs, and the lies ended up encouraging drug use.
You are lying out of a desire to not feel like more of a failure, even though the lies harm you and ensure your continued failure.

Don't speak too harshly about a better version of your own error.