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   Erik L. Midtsveen 🏴🏳️‍🌈🇳🇴 (midtsveen@social.linux.pizza)'s status on Sunday, 16-Mar-2025 06:46:22 JST Erik L. Midtsveen 🏴🏳️‍🌈🇳🇴

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   When I'm in public, at work, around family, friends, at the hospital, or even just riding in a car, I can't have the same emotional release as when I'm by myself. It's like there's a barrier that prevents me from fully connecting with the music and my feelings when others are around.

   Zoë's music just doesn't hit the same way when I'm away from my apartment. It's only when I'm completely alone, without anyone intruding on me and my emotions, that her song can truly work it's magic. In that private space, I can finally let go and experience the full emotional impact of her music.

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     Erik L. Midtsveen 🏴🏳️‍🌈🇳🇴 (midtsveen@social.linux.pizza)'s status on Sunday, 16-Mar-2025 06:46:24 JST Erik L. Midtsveen 🏴🏳️‍🌈🇳🇴

     I'm sharing this publicly because I've never been able to express myself without writing it down on a computer screen. I could have just typed it out in LibreOffice and kept it to myself, but I wanted to share it openly because it makes me feel more authentic. Plus, my autistic brain has this need to show the world who I really am.

     I know it might seem like I'm oversharing, but this is how I process things. It's raw and personal, and maybe it's too much for some people. But this is me, and I'm okay with that.

     Maybe part of me hopes that someone out there will understand what I'm going through. Maybe there's someone else who uses a song like a lifeline, the way I do with Zoë's Loin d'ici.

     If even one person reads this and feels less alone, then sharing all this was worth it to me.

     Mr. Bill repeated this.