Hey.
You.
I know it feels bad. If we have any feelings left, we're so drained. Doing creative stuff, finding ways to have fun, taking time for yourself, etc. might feel selfish, or in poor taste.
But the muses chose YOU. You deserve to live. If it brings joy or expresses determined resilience, do it.
Of all the things the bastards may take, don't let them take your light.