I'm going to be honest, I'm glad I've found God.
Like, I'm surprised at how Christianity actually is compared to an outsider who has seen or dealt with Christians who kinda are being wrongful as in being hateful towards others and all that. I've been praying about 3 times per day at this point and it's something I'm trying to upkeep at times whenever I can. Usually any bad that comes out of Christianity is due to people being Blasphemous like Westboro Baptist Church or Heavens Gate or anything else that tend to be more cultlike and Doesn't follow the Bible at all.
Having Faith in Jesus and him forgiving your sins is a really good feeling, But I try my best to not sin as much as I can. I haven't done anything sexually with myself in 2 weeks now and I can feel my mind clearing up more and more. Before then, I actually more or less forced myself to be sexual with myself because I fear of Prostate Cancer, But I also learned that it was over this one study that shown 20% less but there was other studies that shown otherwise where even people who frequently masturbate had higher chances according to those studies and I've gone to realize that there's really no connection and it's just something being studied.

Anyways, Been happier, Mind is clearer and I have confidence and Faith in The Lord.