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   Miakoda (hellomiakoda@pdx.social)'s status on Tuesday, 28-Jan-2025 07:07:56 JST Miakoda

   I'll say it again -
   You know shit is really REALLY bad when I'm telling my therapist how afraid I am, how I fonstantly feel like I'm being chased by a bear I can't even attempt to run from, and her response is "I got nothing."
   All she was capable of doing is reassure me that I'm not losing my mind.
   "Yeah, you can't CBT your way out of fascism. You can't heal from truama that is currently happening."

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     Miakoda (hellomiakoda@pdx.social)'s status on Tuesday, 28-Jan-2025 07:11:46 JST Miakoda

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     Hey, at least the trauma from being a pedo's plaything as a child isn't bothering me, right?
     It's not even on my fucken radar.

     I have lost hope of recovering from trauma. I've lost that hope so much, I'm not even interested in it anymore. I just want to get to the otherside of this Reich with as little suffering as possible. (And without throwing any innocents to the wolves!)

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     Miakoda (hellomiakoda@pdx.social)'s status on Tuesday, 28-Jan-2025 07:17:23 JST Miakoda

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     My priorities -

     1. - Prime Directive! No matter what is done to me by whom, I refuse to sacrifice my ethics. No matter what I am threatened with, I will never rat out a victim. I will not be caught saying "But he was going to do X if I didn't". Above all else, who I am as a person is top priority.

     2. Protect my loved ones if at all possible.

     3. Survive if possible.

     4. Cease all biological functions if my threshold of endurable suffering is crossed.

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     Miakoda (hellomiakoda@pdx.social)'s status on Tuesday, 28-Jan-2025 07:25:45 JST Miakoda

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     By the way - There are a few people who happen to be among the targeted demographics whom I've had a falling out with, or never liked in the first place for reasons unrelated to being whatever minority...
     Even if I personally fucking hate you... If it comes to them looking for you, and I happen to know where you are, I'm still not telling. It's still wrong, and is not a valid tool for punishment or revenge on someone who's done me wrong.