Now for a serious post.
I feel so small and have achieved so little, and wish I was capable of so much more. I feel regret and shame, and I also see how disruptive the last 4 (5?) years have been to my mental health. I wish I could volunteer more and I wish I could also have more time to take care of my body and mind, neglected for so long that I'm feeling so much chronic pain at 43.