ive mentioned a few times before that awhile back i explored irl social transition in a serious way and eventually came to understand that i am a cis woman. the weird thing is i dont feel like it was a waste of time, i feel like i worked hard and the reward i got out of it was a profound sense of certainty and ease of self. i never had been before but now im proud to be a woman. i mean i earned it. wish i got a certificate to hang next to my bacherlor's. or a ribbon. trophy? a sticker at least