Someone in the replies described me as "not a narcissist" but also "compulsive" and I more of less have to agree that's about the shape of things. I feel seen, but I can't really argue lol.
Seriously feeling unwell tho. The problem is I can't guarantee a day off is gonna fix anything at all; my brain is telling me "do your best this week, cut out early on Friday and just try to sleep it off over the weekend."
When you're your own boss you have to avoid the seductive call of "I don't HAVE to."