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This is kinda odd, but randomly at roughly five years into transition, I'm considering changing up my pronouns from she/they to they/she...which may not seem like much, but is still increasingly seemingly potentially meaningful for me.

For all my friends here, you know I'm a nonbinary trans woman and that ain't changing. I still have a strong sense of my own womanhood and of being "a woman *and* more." And there's so much relational meaning bound up in she/her and being treated as belonging as "one of the girls" through that.

...but then there's this thing that still happens to me, every time someone refers to me as "she," I still have to remind my brain they are talking about me. It's a lot closer and I see myself in it more than I ever did "he," but my brain doesn't register it automatically, and it's no longer just a matter of habit since I've been she/her for years now.

And when someone calls me "they," my brain immediately recognizes I'm being talked about. So...that's a thing?