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   『VRISKA』 (vriska@lizards.live)'s status on Sunday, 30-Oct-2022 09:16:04 JST 『VRISKA』

   Think I might have actually just got rid of the last bits of internal homophobia

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     Khan (pernias brother) (khan@sleepy.cafe)'s status on Sunday, 30-Oct-2022 09:16:17 JST Khan (pernias brother)

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     @vriska what exactly was that for u
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     『VRISKA』 (vriska@lizards.live)'s status on Sunday, 30-Oct-2022 09:20:02 JST 『VRISKA』

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     @khan feeling fucked up for not liking men, like some internal innate brokenness then also this constant underlying fear that any affection I ever showed anyone would come across as predatory or weird, it's kind of hard to explain it too eloquently but it was mostly a base level kind of self hatred stoked by feeling alienated from "normal"

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     Ashley Emma Grey :agummyhug: (dhfir@expired.mentality.rip)'s status on Sunday, 30-Oct-2022 09:23:19 JST Ashley Emma Grey :agummyhug:

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     • Khan (pernias brother)
     @vriska @khan ah, the wierd doubt shit.
     you got free?
     respect.
     and envy.
     and respect.
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     『VRISKA』 (vriska@lizards.live)'s status on Sunday, 30-Oct-2022 09:23:21 JST 『VRISKA』

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     • Ashley Emma Grey :agummyhug:

     @dhfir @khan just from the self doubt surrounding being gay but not the other kinds yet BUT we can both do it

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     Ashley Emma Grey :agummyhug: (dhfir@expired.mentality.rip)'s status on Sunday, 30-Oct-2022 09:24:29 JST Ashley Emma Grey :agummyhug:

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     • Khan (pernias brother)
     @vriska @khan I hope so :agummyhug:
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     Khan (pernias brother) (khan@sleepy.cafe)'s status on Sunday, 30-Oct-2022 09:25:54 JST Khan (pernias brother)

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     @vriska I'm not going through the exact same thing but I used to have a lot of self loathing and disgust also. I still feel different from everyone, it's always in the back of my mind and in the front of it when I'm sad
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     『VRISKA』 (vriska@lizards.live)'s status on Sunday, 30-Oct-2022 09:30:48 JST 『VRISKA』

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     • Khan (pernias brother)

     @khan this sounds gay as hell to say (bad kind) but although I still do struggle with feeling like I'm even the same species as people around me I've found it helps me feel less alienated if I'm just authentic and weird and people are okay with it. Feel less like it's hiding my otherness

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     Khan (pernias brother) (khan@sleepy.cafe)'s status on Sunday, 30-Oct-2022 09:54:26 JST Khan (pernias brother)

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     @vriska yeah I try to do the same as much as I can