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   ninja8tyu (ninja8tyu@varishangout.net)'s status on Sunday, 24-Dec-2023 13:52:00 JST ninja8tyu
   kinda fucked up as well after watching the dream video to already be aware that there's at least 2 people i interact with in what feels like a parasocial way
   
   not because i intended to, but honestly, i just treat them like strangers, any other person, not like fans who i just brush off, and even though there's only been maybe 7 people at max who frequented my videos despite my large sub count, maybe that was me inadvertently allowing them to step past a line that others normally drew in very bright and visible colors
   
   but i'm also not the type of person who wants to just call it quits and shut them out right now unless some dumb shit like the stone skiddies happens
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     Lina Inver?e (lina@eientei.org)'s status on Sunday, 24-Dec-2023 13:51:56 JST Lina Inver?e

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     @ninja8tyu parasocial relationship
     more like
     parasitic relationship
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     ninja8tyu (ninja8tyu@varishangout.net)'s status on Sunday, 24-Dec-2023 13:51:57 JST ninja8tyu

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     OH MOTHERFUCKER, HOW DID I GET INTO A PARASOCIAL RELATIONSHIP
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     ninja8tyu (ninja8tyu@varishangout.net)'s status on Sunday, 24-Dec-2023 13:51:58 JST ninja8tyu

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     actually, i'd like to know something
     
     exactly at what point of internet fame, measured in subscribers/followers/average view count/whatever you want, does creepy internet stalkers become a viable concern
     
     say like, above 15% for any person that comes and talks to you has a chance of being that guy and their target is you is the point i'd consider "maybe something to worry about"
     
     it really doesn't help that everytime this guy's begged for a vc, it's been one-sided as fuck where i just fucking ramble about shit until he falls asleep, and he's always trying to push me to find a method of transport and to meet-up in real life
     
     also allegedly claims to have a girlfriend, yet lusts after me, and also a boyfriend who would be jealous if they found out this guy and i were together
     
     and i decided to watch this weird ass meme video he sent after i woke up, which is just a shitty song that's like "i gave you my heart" and "i was just a shoulder to cry on"
     
     
     
     maybe i'm the type of guy who pushes away people who would be friends because i become very overly critical of their behaviors, but i genuinely don't believe at any point in my life have i ever done that to someone who didn't deserve it
     
     especially when this entire time, i looked at every red flag and went, "nah he's probably just weird, i'll still lend 'em an ear"
     
     
     
     another fucking pet peeve was when i talked about my pixiv getting banned for possibly the ai dogshit art i generated (literally so bad, it's funny), and he went like "yeah they use real cp as reference, no wonder your account got banned"
     
     when that wasn't what i fucking said at all? that what i uploaded that was ai art looked like something or someone in chernobyl survived and lived for 10 years in the radiation because it was fucking funny?
     
     and also, he seemed completely fuckin' fine with the fact that he basically just went in presuming i generated illegal shit with illegal means, as in AI-CSEM with whatever ai tools might have been using them as reference?
     
     
     
     as weird and retarded as i am, i strive to change for the better, not choosing to stay in this weird fucking pit of degeneracy of wanting to lust over me
     
     not fucking "wolfy," because he's been asking for irl pics of me on onlyfans, and clearly after sending me a ph video of a guy using a dildo to please himself, i highly doubt my design of my character is what's turning him on more than
     
     
     
     i treated this guy's weird fucking antics as a joke, because every fucking vtuber has that one weirdly lustful viewer or several
     
     but holy crap, every single fucking time this guy speaks within my vicinity, it's always fucking "VC," "VC," "VC," "VC," "VC," "VC," "VC," "VC," "VC," "VC," "VC," "VC," "VC," "VC," "VC," "VC," "VC," "VC," "VC," "VC," "VC," "VC," "VC," "VC," "VC," "VC," "VC," "VC," "VC," "VC," "VC," "VC"
     
     and whether it's in my chat, server, or in VC, it's always "gimme a kiss" and other shit like that
     
     there's a strange lack of variety and i both find it boring and annoying, and if any change was present, it was in intensity rather than in range, because again, i have to beg the question of when did i ever say i was interested in gay porn?
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     ninja8tyu (ninja8tyu@varishangout.net)'s status on Sunday, 24-Dec-2023 13:51:59 JST ninja8tyu

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     do i want to rant about this?
     
     yeah, but honestly i don't want to be the one who has to tell him he's behaving disturbingly, because i'm the last person who gets to say that
     
     i remember when i was on tenma's streams making shitty sex jokes and asking her for her to spit on me obnoxiously before i was banned
     
     now this guy comes in and bothers me begging for smooches and gay femboy nude pics on onlyfans
     
     allegedly according to him, he's done similar to pippa and tenma, and he thinks i'm the male version of pippa, but that's slightly irrelevant
     
     he's done the same to both of them because he finds their embarrassment entertaining, not unlike what i've done
     
     if there is a god, the old bastard sent this guy straight to me after my little acts of terror toward phase connect, and the day i see god is the day i kick him in his holy cock and balls with the force of a sledgehammer
     
     the moment he sent me a fuckin' pornhub vid of some "femboy riding a dildo" directly into my dms was the moment all the fuckin' vc moments of him wanting to meet me in person started to become more serious rather than shitty crude jokes
     
     often said something about how you can really only make trustworthy friends with those you meet in person
     
     now, i wouldn't know how to describe why it's off, why it's weird, why it's off-putting and kinda fucked up to send that shit to me in any way with details...
     
     ...but i've been pretty goddamn overt with my love of lolis and cunny, and i don't believe for a single fucking moment of my life have i ever implied in any sort of way i'm gay, especially to fucking 3D shit, where i'd in any way, shape, or form, like being sent gay porn
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     ninja8tyu (ninja8tyu@varishangout.net)'s status on Sunday, 24-Dec-2023 13:51:59 JST ninja8tyu

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     it's another day ending in y
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     ninja8tyu (ninja8tyu@varishangout.net)'s status on Sunday, 24-Dec-2023 13:52:00 JST ninja8tyu

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     a good way to make me regret learning ai in a single comment
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     Lina Inver?e (lina@eientei.org)'s status on Sunday, 24-Dec-2023 14:14:08 JST Lina Inver?e

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     @ninja8tyu it is what it is, with being on discord and being a vtuber you are bound to run into people like that
     i can't even fathom to realize what's the best course of action here cuz my way of doing things automatically filters overly annoying people away and i think he might be like "DURRR HE'S IGNORING HIS BIGGEST FAN HE DOESNT CARE ABOUT HIS FANS" or some shit if you start just outright ignoring him
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     ninja8tyu (ninja8tyu@varishangout.net)'s status on Sunday, 24-Dec-2023 14:14:09 JST ninja8tyu

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     • Lina Inver?e
     @lina that's probably and honestly more accurate
     
     i remember this guy saying i called my vtuber character "Wolfy" because of him, but i literally have documentation (my entire youtube) basically me calling him that because i was too lazy to look up a name for a character that was initially disposable before he ever found and commented on my videos/streams
     
     i genuinely thought, "what the fuck is this guy talking about" when he said HE thought HE was the reason i call my character a simple-ass name
     
     turns out this guy thinks he's important to me
     
     i was already trying to bore him to death by not answering many of his dms and messages to get him to back off, but fuck, i'm not sure what's my game plan now
     
     "only person who even talked to you" what the goddamn fuck is this guy on about, he literally was one of very few recurring names i noted, because all he said was shit like "give smooches to chat" and "belly pics" in my comments
     
     and "maid dresses"
     
     fucking, everything i thought was a funny "ha ha funny (enough ig) joke about sex ha ha" because about every bloody vtuber has porn of them
     
     THIS GUY WAS FUCKING SERIOUS
     
     I DON'T KNOW IF I SHOULD'VE TAKEN THEM SERIOUSLY TO BEGIN WITH, BUT GOD IT DOESN'T FEEL GOOD REALIZING THIS FUCKER'S BEEN SERIOUS ABOUT EVERYTHING
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     ninja8tyu (ninja8tyu@varishangout.net)'s status on Sunday, 24-Dec-2023 14:39:25 JST ninja8tyu

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     @lina i'm not even a bloody 1view vtuber
     
     how bad does my luck have to be that one of my earliest recurring viewers is unhealthily obsessed with me
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     Lina Inver?e (lina@eientei.org)'s status on Sunday, 24-Dec-2023 14:47:03 JST Lina Inver?e

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     @ninja8tyu looks like there are people looking for outright unknown amateur vtubers to be the first to simp after
     i guess if there's nothing to lose then just outright ignore him no matter what he does, even if he starts threatening to kill himself
     maybe it'll be amusing who knows
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     Lina Inver?e (lina@eientei.org)'s status on Sunday, 24-Dec-2023 14:51:07 JST Lina Inver?e

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     @ninja8tyu huh, i'd be just on guard and secretly excited for that because it'd mean i'd finally get an excuse to fight someone
     guess it's a mindset thing
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     ninja8tyu (ninja8tyu@varishangout.net)'s status on Sunday, 24-Dec-2023 14:51:08 JST ninja8tyu

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     @lina i'm more concerned if he'd be aggressive enough to try and stalk and find me
     
     it doesn't feel good knowing that i wasn't street-smart to know a place i went to is the only fucking one in america and i happened to live near enough by it
     
     i'm more concerned about my safety, because there's a reason horror stories exist and i'd rather not be in one
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     Lina Inver?e (lina@eientei.org)'s status on Sunday, 24-Dec-2023 14:58:14 JST Lina Inver?e

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     @ninja8tyu being creative helps, anything that looks heavy and hard enough is already better than being bare handed, you can also conceal a rebar or a club on you, you can also conceal a knife on you, i know i can easily conceal a baseball bat on me with a coat
     you can also put effort into getting in shape to make it easier in case of an emergency
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     ninja8tyu (ninja8tyu@varishangout.net)'s status on Sunday, 24-Dec-2023 14:58:15 JST ninja8tyu

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     • Lina Inver?e
     @lina i'm not fit enough to take down or kill someone with my bare hands, nor does anyone trust me with a gun
     
     i'm fucked in any place i can't jackie chan my way out of
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     ninja8tyu (ninja8tyu@varishangout.net)'s status on Sunday, 24-Dec-2023 15:25:04 JST ninja8tyu

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     @lina well, i decided to ban that guy on my youtube and discord, alongside block him
     
     i don't want to fucking deal with that ever again lmao
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     Lina Inver?e (lina@eientei.org)'s status on Sunday, 24-Dec-2023 15:25:04 JST Lina Inver?e

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     @ninja8tyu yea just keep what i said in mind, if it won't be needed for that guy, it'll be useful in general in life
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     ninja8tyu (ninja8tyu@varishangout.net)'s status on Sunday, 24-Dec-2023 15:28:12 JST ninja8tyu

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     • Lina Inver?e
     @lina yeah, i definitely need to keep that shit handy on me
     
     but until i can be trusted even with a knife outside the kitchen, i'll have to use chairs and sticks from the ground to survive
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