A clarification on death threats, death wishes, etc:

I did say I wish Maija would die. I will not deny that. I don’t actually believe it, and very rarely actually wish death on anyone. I shouldn’t have said it.

There is a little bit of context: I was drunk and home alone, with nobody to mediate my worst tendencies. I have also been dealing with a lot of family “drama,” which put me on the verge of being cut off, so I’ve been particularly vulnerable.

I had been complaining about both Maija and Adiz in private for a while, but didn’t say anything on fedi because I didn’t want to cause a fuss. So many of my mutuals and other accounts I follow were following or even friends with one or both of them, not to mention others who started pulling antisemitic tropes and rhetoric later. It’s very distressing seeing such antisemitism treated as no big deal by people you otherwise respect. I had attempted to mute accounts that replied to or reposted either or both of Maija and Adiz, but things kept popping up.

I should not have told anyone that I hope they die or should die. But I didn’t do so from a stable place; I was lashing out after repressing discomfort and pain for a very long time.

If you think telling someone to die is worse than openly being antisemitic and refusing to change that, then I think we both don’t want to be around each other.