every waking is a shock
as if sleep is forgetting
four-something if i'm lucky
and adrenaline everywhere
sitting on the bed edge
sorting which splintered ghosts are real
and which are real, but dreamt
reassembling myself
because
i'm not sure
habit, i suppose
monsters were no easier
when they were under the bed
than now they share my skin
though as a kid
i wasn't afraid to ask for help
and still believed it could come
Thanks @FrostPoem - early.