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   novatorine 🏴🏳️‍⚧️ (anarchopunk_girl@kolektiva.social)'s status on Tuesday, 03-Oct-2023 03:08:02 JST novatorine 🏴🏳️‍⚧️

   I wish I wasn't a literally useless human leach, that'd be nice. But apparently brain damage says no. So I guess here I am, slowly rotting away, constantly so exhausted and filled with pain and brain fog that gets worse whenever I focus or try to do anything taxing that I can't even watch fucking TV let alone be useful.

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     novatorine 🏴🏳️‍⚧️ (anarchopunk_girl@kolektiva.social)'s status on Tuesday, 03-Oct-2023 03:10:10 JST novatorine 🏴🏳️‍⚧️

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     I constantly feel like everyone around me, especially on here, is judging me, as if everything I can do is proof I should be able to do more or should be doing more and everything I can't do is proof of my worthlessness

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     novatorine 🏴🏳️‍⚧️ (anarchopunk_girl@kolektiva.social)'s status on Tuesday, 03-Oct-2023 03:43:32 JST novatorine 🏴🏳️‍⚧️

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     • Lightfighter

     @Lightfighter yeah, it's easy to be hard on yourself. There's so much complexity to the way this kind of thing is experienced and so much internal to what you can and can't do and when and why that you can't help but wonder how other people see it and how they might misunderstand.

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     Lightfighter (lightfighter@infosec.exchange)'s status on Tuesday, 03-Oct-2023 03:43:33 JST Lightfighter

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     @anarchopunk_girl I understand how you feel. I struggle with PTSD, not to the same extent that you are, and it's tough when people see me do all kinds of work at one point, then see me struggling to get through the day other times. I honestly think very few people are actually judging me, I'm just really hard on myself.

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     novatorine 🏴🏳️‍⚧️ (anarchopunk_girl@kolektiva.social)'s status on Tuesday, 03-Oct-2023 04:22:28 JST novatorine 🏴🏳️‍⚧️

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     • Ginnikin

     @ginnikin it makes me deeply horrified and sad when applied to other people but obviously I'm the only person on the planet that has to continually approve her usefulness and entirely support herself or else she shouldn't exist 🙃

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     Ginnikin (ginnikin@wandering.shop)'s status on Tuesday, 03-Oct-2023 04:22:29 JST Ginnikin

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     The concept of usefulness applied to people is thoroughly appalling. It infuriates me.

     I'm sorry your health is so crappy.