I am great at making declarative self loathing statements like a blithe fool, that have a faint amount of haughtiness to throw people off just enough to not worry.
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Ciggy Bringer of Smoke (ciggysmokebringer@kolektiva.social)'s status on Friday, 08-Sep-2023 22:32:43 JST Ciggy Bringer of Smoke -
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Ciggy Bringer of Smoke (ciggysmokebringer@kolektiva.social)'s status on Friday, 08-Sep-2023 22:32:43 JST Ciggy Bringer of Smoke I really wish that my first inclination to people that bug the hell out of me in how they are was not "Well Im outta here and not telling anyone, I dont like this person for seemingly petty reasons, but I am not gonna get over it and I do not want to explain this to a goddamn soul".
Part of it may be how I botched a friendship of over 20 years because I couldnt stand one of my bro's wife because of how she was in so many capacities and how we was goofy in bad ways around her, and like, that was painful enough explaining years of a cold shoulder as "your wife sucks, I know we've hung out numerous times but I dont like her and how she is towards me" and the blubbering onto "I dont wanna talk to you and my mind is made up"
and like we've figured some of it out like going to ballgames and lunches some years later cause he was lonely and I am not heartless and shit, buuuuut...like I know its mostly my problem that people can bug me like this and I have such a visceral "I do not want to be here and really dont have to be, so I wont" reflex to some insignificant portion of people that I just can't stant.
For all my confrontational spirit, stealthy egress requires so much less and has such wider application
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Ciggy Bringer of Smoke (ciggysmokebringer@kolektiva.social)'s status on Friday, 08-Sep-2023 22:32:43 JST Ciggy Bringer of Smoke It is none of my business who my friends fall in love with and make babies with, but it is entirely my business if I'd rather pop zits in the mirror for 9 hours straight in self mutilative catharsis than hang out with some people Ive met and know.
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