I had a similar experience and, at the time of my affair, thought much like the character in the book. I was deluded by my own narcissism and found out just how different real life is from romantic fantasy. I, too, had a male friend from childhood who never gave up hope that one day I would be his. Even after we both had married we remained friends, even though I knew his ultimate goal was to possess me. My husband trusted me and saw no reason for me to give up an old friend. Of course, I was never truthful with my husband. I never told him about the kisses my friend and I shared or the many times he begged me to leave my husband and children. As with the character in the book, the mundane sameness and weight of married life and raising children took its toll and I eventually succumbed to the allure of passion. And like the character in the book, one night I finally had sex with him. Our covert affair occurred at a party while my husband and my friend’s wife were in another part of the house.
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