I have a fear or driving... but even if I got over it I'd have a crazy car payment like 600+ insurance. My credit is horrible I'm so sick of all my money going to rides but I promised my late father I wouldn't get a bus. And I can't quit or I'll lose my storage. I had my cards down but now I'm dipping into them because I have NO money after my personal bills for even food. On top of 800 on Ubers, I'm paying 310 on storage, 85 on phone and 50 on credit card. I'm left with not much. I'm so tired I feel stuck and I'm always foggy. I also have issues with disordered eating. So I eat a frozen pizza everyday + soda horrible I know. I have little variety. I have no time I work fulltime I always feel terrible and tired. I Can't sleep I'm constantly worried about money. I love my partner and am thankful but hate myself for being so broke. I am always tired and bitter every time I see him buy anything even though he pays the utilities. I feel so exhausted. Like I'll never get a house or have a bright future I'm just a failure. I'm 21 and like stuck in a never ending cycle while everyone else is living it up. My dad died last year so I had to fire up fast but I often feel like it will never get better or just gets worse. Any advice other than take the bus is fine I live on 8 miles and often work nights it's not worth the risk and commute.
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